The Writing Forum Presents The Poetry of Timea Szûcs   WRITER’S PROFILE: My name is Timea Kinga Szûcs. I am a Hungarian in a Romanian country and I write English poems, with the hope that this way, I will reach more people and because, as strange it may seem, it is easier for me to do it in this language. I wrote my first poem in the spring of 2001, at the age of 12. What began as an experiment, ended as something that had rhyme, rhythm and expressed feelings. Those who read it at the time, thought it was pretty good, so I continued writing. Five years later I started taking writing more seriously, I became a member of a community of writers and by the summer of 2006, four of my poems got published. Poetry is my escape from the daily routine, a way of communication, my Neverland or sometimes, just a diary where I write my experiences, feelings. In these last years, poetry has become... a lifestyle. I write poems on various themes: about life, about death, about the world we live in and its society, about love, about hate and everything in between. It depends of the mood I’m in, of the music I’m listening, of the news I read/hear… I also wrote some short stories and more recently, as I started to learn playing guitar, I started to write lyrics as well. I hope you will enjoy my work, as much as I enjoy writing it. Please visit my website, “Bits of Poetry” by clicking here. Email: sprince_sztk@yahoo.com Page 2 of 2 Archives POEMS - Page 2: (click on the button next to any poem title in the list below to be linked directly to that poem’s location on the page)  Lost  Tonight  Issues  Illusive  Move on  Losing grip  Here  analysis  net-era  Locked  Hang On  Regression  Flirt  Forgotten memory  Naked  Guidance   Lost Tears of past fall all the way To pages of lost yesterday, I look above to skies of lust, All my wishes turned to dust. True intentions never seen, Voodoo dolls made to be mean, Tongues of odium taste the air, Nothing's deserved, life isn't fair! - Pulse grows higher, tired eyes Watch a flight of dragonflies... Come my darling, hold my hand, Let's make castles out of sand! Oh no, wait, waves come and go, What we've built goes with the flow... I hate to be a part of this, And feel a chill each time there's mist, And feel depressed there is no use: How to hold on, when nods are loose? How to go on, when roads are blocked? How to escape, when gates are locked? Many problems, no solutions, Wars caused by some wrong conceptions Peace and freedom have a cost In this world I feel so lost!   Tonight I can't move, I'm just too cold, the music shouts in my stereo, my head explodes, it pained all day... Can I find comfort in a rock'n'roll song? The phones near me, perhaps I should call him, but I can't talk, I have nothing to say, there's a mess in my head, a mess all around me, old paper clips waiting to be thrown away... I sit next to bottles of mineral water, one is full, other's empty, I'm bored and I'm thirsty I'm cold yet I'm too lazy to move, too lazy to sleep and get finally warm. Things I wrote, songs I sung, verses going on in my mind while the walls are moving around and my dress hanging out from a closet I've found - I reach to the switcher to turn off the light. With my eyes closed and my head laid down, the chill is running down my spine, time'to decide, it's thirteen past midnight, so I'm getting up and shutting down the registry.   Issues Some different pictures Yet same old lectures Unusual textures Unstable structures Never-felt feeling Dangerous dealing Can't touch the ceiling Can't finish cleaning His tasks are draining Outside is raining Can't find a meaning No one is winning He acts so wicked She's still so vivid A whole world naked Overpopulated   Illusive Time is just a broken clock, don't hang it on the wall Thoughts are notes left on a desk and truth is just a call Secrets lay bare in a shop still waiting to be paid Facts concreted in the mind of those who are afraid Fear is in the air you breathe, doubts are hovering birds, Regret is in the elements, forgiveness just in words Other paths walked, those paths followed, will it ever end? Promises are built on sand, deceptions are a trend Paradise becomes a dream and dreams are just a phase To clearly see what's really there, allay the darkened haze Love's a soap slipping through hands -pleasure's just a joke Successes bound in amulets are choking on their smoke   Move on Let's leave the past to be past, let's be friends like when we were friends, let the waves wash the shores of our passing love, life won't last forever, nothing ever does, but things get better, like a bottle full of wine... Don't worry; in time, everything will turn out fine.   Losing grip Today is a fine day to see it all clear I'm losing my balance, oh are you still here? The leaves have all fallen, my wound's an illusion, I'm trapped near a willow, I"m losing clear notion The gates are all closed, there'll be no intruder Release all the pressure, the games are all over The candles are melting and fragmented flames Are burning the pain, our mortal cold cranes I"m waiting for you at the end of the world I hope you will come, and you'll keep your word I'm looking at pictures; I wish you were here, Will miles separate us? That's my only fear...   Here Here we are: Living on this planet wondering why Asking questions looking at the sky Hoping answers will fall like drops of rain Where can we find the way that leads to no pain? Here we stand: Alone, all by ourselves, now we question the truth. We won’t believe; we are the distrustful youth Always searching for a tricky meaning Learning everything’s demeaning! Here we lay: Where our bed is our fate and our pillow our faith And where it’s already too late to find a soul mate Dreaming of a better tomorrow, Today our existence is full of sorrow. Here we stop: For a minute, to gain back the strength, To wait, than go on and be able to create; Fear is usual, Will is essential Love and Patience are existential.   analysis we’re two parallel lines two people walking for miles heading to akin destination on the only way, with just a direction we’re each other’s doppelganger searching one another, looking for an answer trying to solve the meaning of existence to find our soul mate and learn ‘bout coexistence we’re Alpha and Omega looking for utopia looking for the peace and the lost bohemia going to the future, thinking of the past hoping that love will always outlast   net-era in front of PC we search websites to see as an answer to our plea some downloads are free but the links are broken, the access: forbidden so we chat with our friend cause we do love this trend then we’re trying to find the things in our mind; we bookmark the page to calm the cruel rage of navigating for ages reloading the images… we zoom in full-scale then we read our new mail but we’re soon off the line and back in real time the net creates dependency I think we need some therapy   Locked Recite my writings on the wall Look at my nails, they painted all No pen, no paper, just blank ink In empty cells there’s room to think And time to write what’s on my mind Inside this place dark thoughts I find Dreadful dreams in shredded sheets The same old news: defeats – deceits Wars, hate, fears, misunderstanding Alone, down here – the pain is growing…   Hang On Nobody knows your name, You’re a gloomy face in this crowded place Searching for someone to blame You’re a drop in the ocean Buddy you’re trivial, won’t visit your burial Try to suppress your emotion No one said life will be fun You’d better hide away, strive to survive decay And don’t regret the things you’ve done.   Regression What’s going on? My mind’s confused. I find myself crying at the sight of you in photographs that should have been erased but I realize four years will never go away... I wonder what are you doing, how is your life, do you find comfort in flashbacks of your mind? When it’s time to move on, just hope for a better life and tell yourself, everything will be alright. Don’t look back, but if you do, think of the good times. Don’t regret the choices you make sometimes.   Flirt Long blond hair, Eyes looking in smoke I pass, one smile One touch on your jacket… Loud music, no words, Just wishes, one heartbeat Mixed style, mixed feelings Same questions in mind… Just say something And I’ll respond. Won’t you come? Attraction. Reaction. I want more. I want You.   Forgotten memory I remember the moment I first fell in love I was young, naive, still full of hope I waited months for just one ‘hi’ And I was blind, misread the signs. But maybe those weren’t signs at all, My mind kept playing tricks too sore. Now I’ve grown up and I’m still unsure. What do I feel? Will my heart ever heal? Distant eyes forget each other. He surely forgot mine Now he sees different eyes, he lives different life, He’s kissing other lips, he loves another woman And I’m building new things out of the cold ruin But this chapter will close, old part of my destiny He’s a distant obsession, a forgotten old memory … I’ll continue my life; there will be no regression And everything will be an ancient history. I’m a locked up coffin and he is the mystery.   Naked Again, this paper lies naked in front of my eyes Should I destroy its nakedness with these words, With these lines; Does it want to feel the touch of my pen? I just need to write every now and then! And so, this paper becomes my journal, My past and present, in this routine infernal; It’s the only one that knows me, the only one that cares, The only one that finds an answer to my prayers When I’m alone, it’s there to stay When I’m desperate, it isn’t running away… When I need confession, and I have to tell It’s the only friend who listens so well… But now I feel guilty, for I have scattered this document And this way I’ve wrecked again the commitment Of purity and virgin notion, Of the unscathed emotion; Of the naked paper living in motion… I destroyed all kind of devotion! I always tear down… I think that I’m wicked! And now, my soul’s lying here, lonely and naked…   Guidance Take a look at the stars; Can you see the Milky Way? Take a look at the path, It’s painted by Monet. Follow the road, And follow your heart The trip will be delightful, You’ll soon become its part. Just take a look at the signs, They’re all pointing to love Feel it! and you’ll get addicted. It’s exactly like a drug. There won’t be misdirections, You’ll never get lost, Trust in self-confidence, Don’t turn it to dust. Take a look at the environs While heading to reality Take one last look at the things That made you wonder and see. Now open your eyes, Can you see the door? There’s no need to knock You’ve been there before You might not remember Those moments we spent together But I assure you, this is home, Your shelter in bad weather And this is me, still waiting For your journey back in my arms Take the only way that can be taken And ignore the wicked charms I’m your light at the end of the tunnel, Your guidance to your past, Join me in life, join me in death Join me in future, your worries have passed.